Brenton
AhmedCancer - A Not So Memorable Event
August 20th 2007 13:33
I had Cancer.
It all sounds very dramatic doesn't it. And it was, for most involved. Just not quite SO much for me. Not that I can remember. I was young. 2-ish. So my recollections of the time aren't the most clear.
It was Neuro-Blastoma BTW. Not Leukemia. Only little kids develop it I think.
My first memory ever actually, is Cancer related. I was sitting down. I pulled up my shirt and looked at the tubes. I didn't quite 'get it' I recall. I looked down at them, Mum said something and I kind of went mm.
After that... I think thats my only Cancer memory. After that the next I can think of is... Lego? Gosh. Hungry Hippos. Captain Planet. Climbing Trees. Preschool. Kindy. Kindy was a 1994 memory, because I read the year off a piece of paper with handprints. Sticking a tack in my mouth. The mean girl and her sad friend whose only real friends were ladybugs. Jurrassic Park. Star Was Figurines. Monster in my Pocket. People at a meeting, witha sign saying 'Leading Schools, BLEEDING Schools. Etc. Ect. Meeting the Japanese girl next door. Being babysat.
Distracted.
Apparently I went through craving. Rice Bubbles. Um, Bacon. All sorts of stuff. I lost my hair, and I'd pull off my Beanie to surprise people. Heh.
I now know two allergies. Thia-TEPA and Flufloxxacillan.
My Mum would joke when she spoke to us about drugs, telling me I'd had enough drugs for one lifetime already and I didn't need any more.
I don't talk about it a lot as it feels disrespectful to people who have serious forms of Cancer. If I discuss it it's quite candid. I'm not uncomfortable about it. It's just like, I don't want to be whining about something that I survived and don't recall a lot. Fact is, I got off lightly. Could have been a dozen things worse.
Having had Cancer hasn't really impacted on my daily life. I guess I think about death more than many, but I just think a lot. My scar hurts sometimes (when Voldemort's around
) because it still has stitches, as dissolvable ones would have dissolved too fast. I go to the hospital yearly, but more for their sake than mine. I need to have something double checked before I can give blood.
I tell people my scar is a shark bite. Then they don't believe me when I say it was really Cancer.
It all sounds very dramatic doesn't it. And it was, for most involved. Just not quite SO much for me. Not that I can remember. I was young. 2-ish. So my recollections of the time aren't the most clear.
It was Neuro-Blastoma BTW. Not Leukemia. Only little kids develop it I think.
My first memory ever actually, is Cancer related. I was sitting down. I pulled up my shirt and looked at the tubes. I didn't quite 'get it' I recall. I looked down at them, Mum said something and I kind of went mm.
After that... I think thats my only Cancer memory. After that the next I can think of is... Lego? Gosh. Hungry Hippos. Captain Planet. Climbing Trees. Preschool. Kindy. Kindy was a 1994 memory, because I read the year off a piece of paper with handprints. Sticking a tack in my mouth. The mean girl and her sad friend whose only real friends were ladybugs. Jurrassic Park. Star Was Figurines. Monster in my Pocket. People at a meeting, witha sign saying 'Leading Schools, BLEEDING Schools. Etc. Ect. Meeting the Japanese girl next door. Being babysat.
Distracted.
Apparently I went through craving. Rice Bubbles. Um, Bacon. All sorts of stuff. I lost my hair, and I'd pull off my Beanie to surprise people. Heh.
I now know two allergies. Thia-TEPA and Flufloxxacillan.
My Mum would joke when she spoke to us about drugs, telling me I'd had enough drugs for one lifetime already and I didn't need any more.
I don't talk about it a lot as it feels disrespectful to people who have serious forms of Cancer. If I discuss it it's quite candid. I'm not uncomfortable about it. It's just like, I don't want to be whining about something that I survived and don't recall a lot. Fact is, I got off lightly. Could have been a dozen things worse.
Having had Cancer hasn't really impacted on my daily life. I guess I think about death more than many, but I just think a lot. My scar hurts sometimes (when Voldemort's around
) because it still has stitches, as dissolvable ones would have dissolved too fast. I go to the hospital yearly, but more for their sake than mine. I need to have something double checked before I can give blood.I tell people my scar is a shark bite. Then they don't believe me when I say it was really Cancer.
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Comment by Ahmed
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Of course you live in Australia, not the US of A/
Comment by katyzzz
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How quickly and easily a child can mend, but I think you'll find you have a very special purpose in life, but when and where will only manifest itself with TIME.
Thanks for sharing that and making me [at least] feel very humbled.
Enjoy every second every moment of each day.
katyzzz
Comment by Damo
Very Human.
Comment by Chic Critique
And OMG you were in kindy in 1994?!
Your writing belies your age.
Cheers
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Thansk for the encouregement Katyzzz. Hoping this it hurries up and gets Manifesting...
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thanks for sharing this with everyone.
It is especially pertinent for me at the moment, after hearing in the last seven days, that my brother in law has dangerous skin cancers, yet cannot get them fixed until he is in the next payment period of his medical insurance (and this is the American system that Howard and his bitches want to bring here in Oz), another of my old mates has let me know he has aggressive prostrate cancer, and two days ago I am told a pal from many years ago is dying of lung cancer with about a week to live, I'm going to see him tomorrow....not a great week..but, the important thing about your post is, it does give a sense of normality and recovery potential to those suffering from cancer.
So cheers!
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You have my thoughts with you and your possie.
Comment by Hail
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Kids are tough, even though they don't seem it. They go through so much and come out giggling the other end.
Seriously, if someone dropped you on your head right this minute, don't you think you'd get at least brain damage, if not a snapped neck? But no, babies and kids just bounce back. It's so lovely.
I'm glad you don't remember. You wouldn't want to remember.
I'm also glad you're alive today, and have battle wounds to prove that you fought for it.
My heart goes out to your family and your mother. You wouldn't want to feel their fear.
Your piece prompted and inspired me to write my own touch with cancer.
Thanks
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No kidding, I was carrying my infant cousin out of the bunk bed once and she hit her head on the top metal bar. I almost died right there, I thought I killed her or hurt her brain or something, she sort of half woke up then went back to sleep. She was absoloutely fine!
If I hate my head on that bar as hard as hers did it would have hurt like hell, bruised and everything, but she hardly even felt it!
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